With the same strained smile, Dorian nods. "I am too."

He just wonders if it had been enough, before... everything.

With a sigh, he lets his head fall back against the edge of the pool. "I do miss him," he adds, mostly to avoid the silence settling into awkwardness. But he doesn't mean to say some of the words that slip out, and they escape before he realizes it. "Sometimes I can't help but wonder... what he'd think of me if he knew of the things I've done lately."